"EarthShattering Comeback"
1:33 a.m. & 2005-08-25

out of pure stupidity i deleted the last entry.
Is is that simple to delete words that were so complicated. Even now as i sit here utterly confused at how it happened. I knew it said close group, but i didnt think it was really going to close.
Maybe life is a lot like that. Sometimes when you do things you dont really get the reaction you wanted in the first place. It wasnt a mistake...because in the end..you knew it was a possibility of things going wrong.
*sigh* i wont be a kid anymore next summer. sadly...i know i still shouldnt be a kid. I never hit being a teen..not even when i was 18. go figure. I want to choose the life thats simple thats quite possibily the quickest way to die. Its what were all waiting for anyways...right!?
i bet you couldnt even answer that one without wondering. We are all just waiting to die. what we do with the time is what we want to do with it.
waste it working.
waste it caring.
waste it sleeping.
waste it fulfilling our dreams.
waste it never accomplishing those dreams.
when you weight things out it all comes down to one thing. Were all just trying to waste time.
Are you following along here?
For a long-short while i didnt have the time to think of questions like these...i used to. I used to think a lot about stuff like this.
At one point i even believed that there was something more to all of this. But there isnt.
In this world you're going to be the one that dies famous and is forgotten, lives famous and is forgotten, or is forgotten and becomes famous after hes dead.
Theres almost no point.
So ponder that and make way for a very earth shattering return from me back to Diaryland.
-Vanessa

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