"Alice in Wonderland"
7:04 p.m. & 2003-12-07

I wish ppl (ie. Joe) would leave me alone. I believe the proof that ive never been able to be anywhere close to happy is becuz of the things he makes myself believe. If for once i had stopped listening...maybe i would have enjoyed things...well, screw the past becuz im living in the present..im not going to let him input stupid ideas of his, into MY head...im not going to listen to anything he tells me. NONE of this is his business...and really..i intend to keep it this way. Im sick and tired of being shot down when i feel the slightest bit happy..no more.. im happy, and im going to be happy for a long time..

I guess ive been thinking about the little guilt trip he threw on me this morning for yesterday. He got to me, up until the moment i said, "screw it", its not worth it. Im having the best time of my life..and im gonna enjoy it.

Musical wise...i needa jump on it, and starting tomarrow..me and seņor metronome are going to HAVE to become best friends. *sigh* as hard as its going to be..my new home- wait..the bandhall has ALWAYS been my home..well..lets just say that ill never see my real house in the daylight..ill leave when its dark in the morning and i wont come back till its dark at night. :D *thumbs up* uhm...wait, *erm* that already happens too..well, i guess ill just be practicing harder in more productive ways.. Yea, mi going to make state this year...i want it..and if i want it this bad, then..ill work for it...cuz thats the only way ill get it. *gosh* i sure HOPE a lot of us make it..we dont need another year like the last. I have a lotta faith in my senior class...we're dedicated and if all of us work at it..we can all make it there. *haha* im VERY eager to practice..it kinda sucks, cuz i left my instrument at the bandhall thinking id be too tired to practice today..well im not..i drank a StarBucks DoubleShot, HOLY GEEZUZ! O_O im so freaking wired its not even funny!!!!

The Region Trip is Next friday...i seriously cant wait, i wonder who the hell im gonna room with..its a 3 day 2 night stay in Corpus Christi, Texas, at the Embassy Suites Hotel..one of the finer hotels ive stayed in. I practically know the place like that back of my hand..ive been there 3 times. My 8th year, sophomore, and my junior year..this will be my fourth. Gotta luv it..its like my vacation with the bestest ppl in the world my fellow "over achiever" band members. We took 24 ppl to Region tryouts and all of us band the band/trip. about 12-15 ppl made it to go onto area...i cant wait.. >:} *evil grin*

I havent spoke to my mini-me in forever...ok, a day..she could be dead or something..:| and that WOULDNT be good...so ill give her a call later. *TAKE THAT YOU WINGGED SPAWN OF SATAN!*..lmao...sorry..im watching Ace Ventura...gotta luv that movie. *sings* Secret Agent Man....* ok, no more of that...tommarrows monday..a GLORIOUS monday, i cant wait...no, REALLY, the Starbucks DoubleShot's seem to give me the urge to practice which is totally beyond awsome...like i feel the need to go breakdown the bandhall doors so that i can go get my instrument.. I believe the best place to practice is at Magnet...:O we have a stupid little christmas concert there on Tuesday, Dec 9th. *hmmmm* we were supposed to take christmas decorations...i wonder if we were supposed to take them tommarrow..*crap*..*oh well*...ok, well i doubt anyone wants to here my pointless talking anymore, so ill shut up..cuz yea. Just note, that he makes me happier then i could ever imagine. <3

Diffuser-Tell Her This

~*&Vanessa

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