"I apolagize, apolagize, your old enough to take care of..."
7:26 p.m. & 2004-02-15

Poison the Well- The Realist

Please just this once, do this for me.

I've seen you in clouded visions saying goodbye.

I remember when we were gonna sit each other down and explain ourselves.

Always busy blame myself.

Your color was blue myself is making me feel that way.

I apologize apologize you're old enough to take care of...

If we can't speak go back to your bed so you'll be here when I wake up.

And I'm worried with no reason why.

Harm is an acquaintance and says it's not very fond of you.

Just this once "stay" I say. "I'll see you soon" he says.

Until you come back I will stay awake.

Your color was blue myself is making me feel that way.

I apologize apologize, you're old enough to take care of...

They say its the nature of people to Lie. A person lies and then may feel guitly, so they lie again.Life countinues its vicious cycle of hurting people. What happens when someone...say...me, figures this out? They countinue living their life...realizing that life is supposed to be filled with all these problems. Problems of the Past, Problems now, and Problems of the future. Theres no stopping ppl. I know that life isnt filled with perfect, or "near" perfect people, understanding this only makes me get on with life. I learned that i have to live and let go...Just move on. People will always betray/lie/cheat/and over all screw you over in the end. Why should it matter this time? With my luck and my friends, it happens all the time. Amy thinks im mad at her. Maybe this is the part where Vanessa goes all phyco and says "YES I AM MAD!!"...or maybe this is the Vanessa that has learned to deal with Defeat, heartbreak, loss, and...betrayal, so many times before. This is nothing...i guess i can easily say.."ive dealt with worse.." and yet...the lonlely vanessa that wants to live that fun nice, "happy" life...she..well, she wants to cry...becuase she actually thought this was going to be a diffrent friendship...minus the lies...minus the betrayel.

-Nessa

then || now

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