"miss you, miss you"
1:51 p.m. & 2004-05-23

so sorry its been almost nearly a month. Its been chaotic and nerve wrecking. My brain is fried and i take my last final tommarrow. *blah* theres been so much that had to be said, and yet...i felt so stripped from my ability to write it down. BUT now im back and yea, im ready to tell you all wheats been happening. Well, to tell you the truth, my MAP project is out of the way... it was outta the way like 2 or 3 weeks ago. It was a a huge weight off my shoulders but still not completely. I still had my Senior recital. I took care of that Last week on the 20th and it turned out ok. Not the biggest turn out of the year, but yea...pretty good. im not going in any sorta chronological order of any..but i guess as random things pop into my head ill just say them. Yea...i missed the blink182/taking back sunday concert in Selma Tx on May 4th 2004. That was one of the saddest days EVER. That whole day was crap. I took my housing final on friday and i havent gotten my yearbook yet. *blah* im hungry..i want watermelon. Last night was the Senior band banquet..it definately wasnt the best, but the food was good and powerpoint presentation was pretty fun. Gosh i was an ungly baby...and it didnt get any better over the years. Never the less...i came home last night around 2:30. My last saturday as a senior. we all found small little partys to crash here and there. As i sat there alone last night..i realized that once i leave this place, i wont be subjected to the harsh realities of seeing everything i never wanted to see, sitting right there, 3 feet away from me. So, yea..i dont know if i told you all this but yea, ive descided not to go on our annual band trip...this time, out of state to New Orleans...i guess for the same, above mentioned. Friday was the Midi performance at Magnet school...which was by FAR the most ive smiled in the longest time since....Jerry and Hugo's band played Stockholm Syndrome a Blink182 song off their new album. Jerry walked on stage all nervous with his little lyris sheet and then dedicated the song to me *blushes* "Vanessa the biggest blink182 fan out there" and pointed to me...i swear...i couldnt stop smiling..It was one of the nicest jestures anyone has ever done publically. *hehe* The freshman are starting to piss me off more and more and certain "whorish" ones are just plain gross. I could careless by the way. Anyone wanna have some fun...ill give you a name and a number...its not like its probably not written in a guys restroom anyways. Got in a little aurgument the other day with an ex-chaplin. *whew* that was a doozy. fun though. At this moment in time...i dont know what else to say..connection between people are being lost completely...friendships dont last forever, people suck...but..at least im graduating in 4 days. 4 DAYS!!! Thank God. anyways...ill write more later...i gotta go study for my final.

-Va-NESSA

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