"party time!"
1:36 p.m. & 2004-06-15

well...i got my party...and my guestlist of "MUST HAVE PPL". Its gonna be fun. Im gonna have two live bands playing and my dads gonna cook out..and yea. ive got about 56 ppl that are gonna come. Its gonna be fun..right..i need fun anyways. Its scheduled for august 14th and yep. Im having January Nights and 24/7..why the hell am i talking like this. I was up last night reading my old journals, and i guess the way i used to write just stuck in my head. Gosh, some of the stuff i wrote back in 6th grade or even 8th grade was so....juvinial. SO stupid, and pointless most of the time...i wonder if thats what ill think when i look back at my high school journals? Hmmm. Strange how i used to think i was in love with the stupidest of ppl...maybe everyones right..i dont know what i want outta life. Well, out of life i do..you know..i know i wanna be happy and be financially stable and all that stupid stuff..but i mean...i think i want something more out of life, to make someone else happy..or become someone in this life.

I had a really intense dream..and ya know..i wish it meant something..i really did..that is why..im gonna go through with it...thanks miguel..for the idea..i think im actually going to make this thing happen..i think what you told me made some sense. so yea

my party or what! wooo...i really cant wait..i get to hear january nights play again! AHHHHHH! XD omg! haha! it might just be one of those partys where...no no nevermind..i was gonna say wet t-shirt contest ...but my parents are gonna be there..i dont think they want to see theyre daughters goodies all out there. *haha* WELL! see..my dad was like.."i know your friends drink..and if you wanna drink too, thats alright, but they're gonna have to do that here and if they cant drive they needa tell me or your mom so we can drive them home.." i was like! "HELL NO!" nobodys gonna be all stupid at my party..you know how wrong that is...not to mention the fact that my parents think i "wanna" drink..noooooooo, i just dont think that they understand their drunk influence on my life...i dont drink, nor will i ever..and smoking..COME ON! wrong..i have asthma..ill die. *haha* wouldnt many ppl LOVE that.

Anyways, im off to go get my warped tour ticket and a fathers day gift..for...my father. oh, and pick up amy.

time to put that fake little smile on and coverup the marks on my arms...

*eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy*

A Perfect Circle- 3 Libra's

tah tah for now,

Vanessa

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