"summer vacation"
3:14 p.m. & 2004-06-29

i cant say that vacation went well at all.. in fact it wasnt even a vacation. I went to my freshman orientation in college station. i gotta say that it was very intimidating..really. they told us that we were entering one of the most competative feilds ever...and that 8% of our class will actually become veterinarians. :S it was a little scary, but yea..The whole time i was there...i had to deal with everyone loosing so..perfect...i mean..everyones blonde, long blonde hair, tall...with these faces that ...could probabaly be mistaken for someone famous. Me on the other hand...look like some lost little 13 year old...looking for her parents in a huge ass college. (hey..its thundering outside..how nice) We stayed at a holiday inn...my dad got wasted as hell across the street came back with my mom and started telling me that im a fucking screw up that ruined everything, that i dont appreciate anything, and that i could fucking kiss his ass. There was more vulgarity but, i dont really wanna get into that. anyways...we went to houston after that to my favorite aunts house. It rained like..mege hard the whole time we were there. i was suppposed to goto San Antonio after houston but my bastard dad dragged me (mind you, kicking AND screaming) to the most fucking worst place in the world. Louisianna with the bitch of a sister of his and her family. My cousins are cool and all..a little annoying, but dealable..the deal was that we were only supposed to for one muthafuckin day..but NO...the bastard wanted to stay friday, saturday, AND sunday morning...WARPED TOUR was fucking sunday morning 7 hours away from that hell hole. DAMMIT! i dont like him! So saturday night he gets all up in my koolaid...and i had had enough of his bullshit all week. so i asked him what the hell his problem was and stuff..and we started argueing which then led to him physically hitting me when i kept telling him, "go on hit me again" till he was tired.. i went to bed that night with briuses but still..i woke up early that next morning and got ready to leave at 4 am. He woke up yelling "to hell with me and my concert" i was fucking pissed by then..he went back to sleep. fucking asshole..i had waited too long to miss warped tour.. i woke my mom up..who then tryed to wake him up..and God knows what happened after that...but that fucking shrew (ie my aunt) wakes up telling us that we need to be quiet cuz were gonna wake everyone else up...yadayadayada..the bitch gets in my face as im telling my mom that my dad was gonna screw up this concert just like he did the last one (pop disaster tour 2002)and she tells me to not talk that way..and all this mega stupid shit so i told her to get outta my face..and she said "NO! i WILL NOT get out of your face im your aunt...and that is your father..blahblah-" then i told her.."i dont care who you are...your just another person in my book" then..as i turned and walked away, red faced, angry as hell..going to kill someone...she says.."no wonder you came out like that...your momma never whooped you when you were small!" HOLY FUCKING GOD ALMIGHTY!!!! i turned the fuck around pushed her down and started kicking the shit outta her...i mean...wailing on her..throwing my fists..my mom pulled me away and my dad pulled the bloody corpse from me...and i wasnt done yet...my mom just put me in the truck and started telling me that they were just words and that she was a bitch..and....that hoe came in the truck and said..."your never gonna make it anywhere.." i grabbed the metal part of the seatbelt and launched the damn thing into her face...mostly her eye..and my mom, once again had to hold me back...cuz this time..i was gonna kill everything else the cancer didnt..i hope she dies.. i have never wished death upon anyone, but in this case...she mega deserves it...my dad was just mad cuz i had done that to his sister..and my mom was crying cuz i almost DID kill her...and i felt bad for putting my mom through all that. Shes sick..and that wasnt the case..i would have broke free from her embrace...and kicked the hell outta that bitch...my mom had never seen me so defensive, so angry..she told me i had to control my temper when ppl get to me like that..and i told her..no one will ever make me that made unless they talk about her like that again. Damn hicks. fucking white trash bitch. We left at 5 am...and barely made it to warped tour...which i will definately tell you about in the next entry..but till them..i need more than a FEW pain killers...i need morphine or something....

later days...

-vanessa

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