"Everynights another night."
2:04 p.m. & 2004-07-11

ive discovered that if i take a shower at 5 in the morning and crawl into bed at 6 something am...i can wake up at 10:45 am WELL rested! WHOA! supa cool. ima star now. hehe..anyways...im not happy with my live journal layout which is why i was all throwing the finger to it and all..but i guess ill live with it. i like the whole weblog style and everything..id really do it with diaryland..but..im still not good enough with HTML to do that..maybe ill tweek around with the thingy mabobber later. In current news. there is none. Uhm, roxy ortiz's 15nera is today..and i have to see what i can throw together cuz yea..i dont usually dress up, so yea...*ugh* nor do i like dressing up. i guess i can play pretty pretty princess for one day. Its a good thing tali's thingy already requires me to wear a dress thats like...already made..to my body measurements..hehe..which are quite funny. Its green. hehe..green dress, and pink and red hair..fabulous i tell ya..haha. its gonna be cool and all..i was a little afraid that with the expenses of my party and all..i didnt know if we were going to be able to afford it and all.. :S but..yea..its seems that the old lady-- oh boy, excuse my slang, the senior citizen..wait..i think thats worse..the uhm..elderly women...*whatever* who made the dresses already made them..so i wouldnt be able to back out now. *ack* not good. its ok. i owe it to tali for uhm...doing the bad things i did to her in the past. but yea..

i wanna say some other things but, im a triffle scared that someone might read them..hehe. WELL!? it is an open diary and all..no tellin who could just one day stumble upon it. I seriously give up on the guy with the cute head. i figure hes barely gonna be a sophomore and probably has a girlfriend not to mention the fact that..yea...he looks like one of the types that has a lotta gurls after him..and i stand NO chance in any crowd..so yea..i give up on that..the fun 3 days crush was surely fun though. Hmm..im really amazed that this new enginering of how sleep is not REALLY needed and stuff..hehe...anyways..ive been on a mission..thats right..searching for..i..dont.. know.. yea..yupyup..this sucks.

im really waiting for my party...stevens getting the band to play two covers for me. ^_^ thats soo beyond amazing! at the moment hes the best..i mean..i think ive been going at this all the wrong way...i mean..i think back and..uhm..well..lets look at it like this..The guy that i was sooo completely in love with didnt even remember my birthday, and he was my best friend since like..my freshman year..and now..this guy that ive barely known just a coupla months is getting his band to play at my party..not to mention that their basically playing for food..but yea...hes amazing. hes an awsome singer too. hehe..kinda like the guy with the cute head..hes an incredible singer. anyways...what can i say..im a sucker for guitar players that sing..but steven doesnt count..hehe..cuz hes too cool..and their band is like..wooo.yea.

i just realized how annoyed i get when my dad talks to me..i cringe with like..disgust or something..i dunno..he can ask the stupidest crap sometimes. i gotta do my hair..and my car needs gas too. AND i think gas prices are going back up. ohhh hey...little jerrys birthday was yesterday..!! he turned 15 and had a little party thing. it was cool and his cake was good. MMmmm yea. good music..most of the time. Yea, so ive been mega in love with the early november and hawthorne heights lately. Their definately my new fetish..didnt i mention my new goal..haha to one day go out with a guy that looks and acts like joe marro. YES! thats right..mega awsome. it wouldnt get any better than that. hes sooo cool..hehe. i met him at warped tour!!! *does happy dance* 0_0 i dont know where that came from. crap..im turning retarded again. blah. uhm..oh yea...ok..i guess this is gonna come as the biggest shock EVER to you all and stuff..but i guess i better just drop the bomb here.

Tommarrow i start pulling down my blink182 stuff off my walls.. yea..they bring back a lotta old memories of why their there and stuff..and well..im growing up musically and listening a LOT more types of music now...(STILL excluding country, rap, and pop) but more so, rock, indie, emo, screamo, and hardcore..yea..its crazy, but im really starting to leave my punk roots..ill never forget them..but..its time to move on..and ive found the music that really, REALLY makes me feel right about everything around me. soOOOoOOOooo...blink182 is an incredible bunch and they still make me gasp in teenybopper delight...but..my spark and flair for music is more intrigued by other bands...but yea..its hard for me to dismount the oodles of blink 182 crap from my walls and i will ALWAYS be a huge blink182 fan..but..for now..just like they can take a break..so can i.

but yea..so..ive really gotta go raid my closet to see what i can put together. heh.

keep on rockin out!

-vanessa

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