"secrets||sterces"
1:23 a.m. & 2004-07-16

ive got a secret. a terrible secret in fact and its hard to say. only one person knows..and yea...i kinda just had realized it at the moment that i was online with him, so in my enstranged epiphany, i blurted it out to him. the "thing" could very well change the way i think forever, it could change my future, it could even change my life...in more ways than one. im saddened by it, and yet so curious as to why now..why it had to hit me at this moment. It could happen to anyone..and ive seen it happen to young ppl. but why me..i thought i was set..i was determined..i had a plan..and this wasnt in it.. *ugh* this sucks, you know that right..i guess this is what i get for doing the things ive been doing lately..i mean it was incredibly fun. i like fun..im supposed to enjoy fun, and i did..to the point where it led to this...but it shouldnt have gotten to this..but it did.i shouldnt have let it lead to this..and i did i dont know how to make it go away now..in fact..theres only one way to make it go away..and im against that at the moment..

im dissappointed in myself..i really am..

The early november-the course of human life

-Vanessa

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