"take it or leave it."
11:09 a.m. & 2004-07-18

you think after hearing so many things that i wouldnt say something? or atleast try and get you to shut up? oh but what does it matter? you dont have feelings anyway. you dont know what it feels like to lose your best friend.. you never considered me one anyway. i hate having to fuss over you.. i hate that you can do whatever you want whenever you want and not have to feel anything that i do. i hate that you only spoke to me when you felt like it. i hate that i could tell you everything.. and you told me nothing. i hate that you broke every single promise you made.. and all for a boy..who might not even be around when sophomore year starts.. and i hate that you left me there when i found out about shane..you left me sitting there on the curb to see him.. and promised youd be back for me. i hate that you never came back.

i hate that you never wanted to talk to me in the first place.. but did just because i was the first person to talk to you. i hate that you could be so mean..i hate that you could say such horrible things..and all about your "best friend". i hate that you could just throw away everything you worked for when you got here. i hate that you changed. and most of all..i hate myself for letting you do these things to me..for letting you take everything from me..and leave me here...because this never would have happened if it wasnt for me. i did this..

..sad to say..but, i think i liked that amy better. maybe becuase at least there..her feelings are true. Ive been hidden away in her life lately..OH SHIT...thats not about me if your wondering..its about this other chick..someone i just cant stand for making her go through so much hell. Her boyfriend was a good friend of mine..a little stupid, but never the less a friend. And he graduated this year with me..which is a big surprise..but yea..when they were going out, she would leave amy to basically die and fend for herself during lunch. Thats not only cold hearted but its yea..i mean come on. a GUY could get between them..thats more than pathetic. So now she wants to go and apologize, most likely, cuz HEY, hes not gonna be around next year is he...i dunno.

Amys happy..im not so sure if its all worth it..but hey, whatever floats her boat..i mean whats my opinion..im gone already..

The Spill Canvas- Bracelets

-Vanessa

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